Friday, April 28, 2006
Today, I went to skewl as usual. Only 4 hours there. 2 hrs of tutorial and 1 hr of lecture which was dismissed 1 hour early. After that just go for my Friday prayers.
So at about 5, I collected my 'o' cert wif Sumaiyah. I noticed the school's parade flooring have changed like my skewl in Fernvale. Had time to hear Sumaiyah out. She got lots of things to say. Never heard so much for a long long time due to different environment.
She said something that triggered my perception on myself. Two things. One is I'm a pessimist when I talk to people in real life. And optimist when in blog. The other factor is the fact that I'm not humble. Hmm.. I always want to win.
Well, to clearify the issue. I think I'm the sort of person who have mood swing. Lol, like girl sia mood swing. When I write in my blog, I feel that everything that comes out is like a fresh tap of water flowing. When I talk, everything that comes out are garbage. Haha.. Really depends on the mood. If I'm happy, I won't stop blabbering and to the verge of irritation. If not, I'll shut myself up. Thinking in my head. Do what I feel like doing and ain't no one is controlling me.
As for the humble side. I remembered the person who said that I was humble was Syaheedah. After that, everything change. I change. I began more of a freaking bragger. Deceiving myself yet and yet again. Not wanting to lose an argument at any point of time. Transformed to someone I become right now.
I'm trying to change. Slowly. I do not want to brag anymore. I do not want to win anymore. Hmm, difficult to say. I wun give up something that easily. Well, maybe I should loose it when with my friends.
Later at night, went to Kampong Chai Chee Restaurant. Wah.. So full.. The place and my stomach. Eat eat eat.. At this rate, I won't be able to finish the game on time. Outta here
sH@l_iH!n@10:59 PM
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