Lonely

Jobless

2011-10-30T00:22:00.000+08:00

I am jobless still. For almost a month. But, I am feeling that a job is closer now. Well, back to reality. Well, everyone wants to be successful. Does that really happen at the end of the day?I am beginning to miss things. The life without responsibilities that I once knew. My loved ones who have gone from my life. Did I leave them? Or did they just leave me? Sometimes the feeling of 'miss' is funny I guess. It has a mixed feeling. When we recall, it never fails to bring out the happiness. Well, I do not have any words to explain the feeling. I am sure you understand what I mean.Abrupt end.

Posto

2011-03-02T01:34:00.002+08:00

ORDing in the month of October 11'. Now seriously thinking what to do after that. Degree doesn't seem to be pulling me. Maybe I should open up a new course. Degree in Adventure. That'll be cool. I'd sign up for that. Time is catching up. Age is catching up. Death nevertheless is catching up. Before I die, what the hell do I want to accomplish?

A music producer? Kinda cool I think. I think I might enjoy working in that kind of line.

Ok, what more would interest me eh?

Fishing? Serious? I like fishing, but, fishing doesn't me. Hehe :). So far all my catches are pathetic. I have only my stingray, my catfish Duri and maybe a snapper. But those are just medium to a smaller side in terms of size.

But fishes are not able to survive with over-fishing and global destruction. Breeding? Would I like that? Maybe, quite boring.

Traveling would be nice! Pinnacle of a mountain or just being lazy in the savannas gazing and sleeping with the lions.

That traveling part would come after stability at hand.

Bullshit before comfort.

Maybe becoming a writer? Nice, that I would do. But, not without prior knowledge. What kind of knowledge would I want to impart from myself to the community? My bleak knowledge and faith? That would not do. I do not want to confuse. Therefore, that might take my lifetime to accomplish such refined and polished writing for the next generations to come.

Politics, very boring. But, want or not, it is there inevitably.

Racer? Too old already to go pro? Too late with lack of training and sponsorships.

Most likely sticking with things relating to the INTERNET as it a library I shall not want it to be destroyed.

Conclusion, I'm clueless.

Food Galore

2008-10-12T20:53:00.003+08:00

Eversince fyp been around. Have been eating a lot with Fadhil during our break. So, I decided to list it down the what and wheres. So where have we been to:

Within NYP:
-Mac's
Wasabe's Fillet O Fish

I think it's kind of nice. But some people really hate it. Though not as powerful as the real wasabe should have taste, I give credit to it as it can travel through your brain. I was expecting it to be the more friendlier as in not giving much impact to the masses. So I rate 3.5/5.

-South Canteen
Normal food I've been eating for the past 2 years

Well guys, definitely normal. I think what's great form the stall is the bread roll sold in the morning and nuggets. Not a fan of potato wedges now.

-Koufu's
Wanton Chicken Cutlet

It's alright, a bit more taste as compared to South but more expensive and less quantity. Has their own drawbacks.

Outside NYP
-Charco's
Charco's

Have you heard of that place? Well, I just knew it. It's Western food. A meat type accompanied by 3 salads. Best to go on Mon to Weds as it is 2 meals for the cost of 1. Each plate costs around 13 ++ on other days

I think that is all that I want to share. Till next time.

On another issue, have you ever thought how much data the WWW contains? I'm just starting wonder how many billions of TBs. It is even more scary of how easily they can search and identify you. So all, do not even think of blogging or post important and confidential information online to play safe. Good night.

2008-09-18T00:23:00.002+08:00

AVENGED SEVENFOLD LIVE IN SINGAPORE @ MAX PAVILION, 24 OCT

TASTE OF CHAOS TOUR featuring ATREYU, STORY OF THE YEAR, AS I LAY DYING & MUCC Live at Fort Canning Park on Saturday, November 8th at Fort Canning Park!

Livejournal vs Blogger

2008-08-15T22:16:00.002+08:00

As blogger, I decided to draw a line between LiveJournal(lj) and Blogger.

A vast difference that I observe is the speed taken to load. I find that LiveJournal is very slow in loading as compared to Blogger.

That's one for Blogger.

However, I can't deny that Live Journal has more functionality which is to add friends and can select the viewers.

That's one for Live Journal.

However, that's only one variable left. Lj sounds like a harsh word in Chinese Dialect whilst Blogger is always is always mutual and been around first. So let you decide the Winner. :)

I need to VROOM!

OLD

2008-08-02T21:45:00.002+08:00

There's one thing I notice today. Everyone is getting old. In 5-7 years time, I'd probably be getting married already. Insyallah. My poly life is going to be over pretty soon. It's going to be tough after that. Must start thinking of living. Earning for your family and stuff. Tough loads.

But I guess, that is all part of growing up. At first, your parents work their ass off for their kids. When the kids gets older, it's high time for them to do the same. It is just a chain. An unbroken chain. Well, that can be broken if you don't get married or have any heir to your throne.

But I guess, nobody really wants that huh? Tell me if you feel that way because I want to know. Some friendships are getting tighter while some are falling apart. The theory of lose something and gain something in return always applies in all aspects of life.

I feel myself beginning to understand the deeper meaning of life. The meaning of 'there is no such thing as accidents' from Kung Fu Panda. Yes, there is no accidents. In a way to say that there's only destiny and fate. You'll learn something, no matter how bad it is and making you feel like a total loser.

Learn from it and just keep moving forward. That is the only way. And I really mean it when I say it's the only way because nobody can go back in time. Even the most intelligent person can't do that. Maybe theoretically but not actually.

3rd yr

2008-04-17T21:40:00.002+08:00

3rd year is on and I'm like what distasting 2 lecturers.. Hmm.. One is due to his troublesome technique and the other is for not caring bout me. But, I will not be subdued by them. Hell no.

Haven't went inspection. I love the channel 11,12 and this United Colors Of Benetton smells nice(im not using it aniwaez).

Yeah, needs to start. Chaoz.

School's reopens soon

2008-03-25T02:13:00.002+08:00

School will be reopening soon. Sad. But it's alright I guess. Just a year left. Should I quit Guardian? I feel like quiting. Just afraid that I will have that lazy attitude if I were to work. If that happens, I would heck many lessons. Dangerous.

Life, how has it been? It has been good for me. Don't know bout you.

Recently went escape. Fun, i didn't shout at all. Surprising but true. I guess I had embarrassing moment when I shouted before like words of curses. Maintain perut ar beb. Haha.

Ambition, how has it been? My ambition's still there but still asleep.

One day, will make it happen. Just keep it alive.

Relationships, how has it been? It's alright. Still strong. Though it's inevitable to keep it in a steady form always towards everyone.

Jealousy, how has it been? Well, jealous of myself. Haha. Kidding. Well controlled.

Fitness, how has it been? Bad. Really bad. You know you need to do something bout it k. NS soon. Physical Fitness Test soon. So, buck up and do your best k. I give you a target of at least a Bronze because I pamper you. Maybe too much.

Best? best. K lah. post.

Boring

2007-12-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I ask myself: "Why this?" "Why that?".. Other times : "Why not this?"" "Why not that?".. Do you know why? Or shall I ask "Do you not know why?"
Why? It might sound different but does it mean the same? Why am i or am not asking this? Actually just to mess with your heads. Ehe.

Holidays killing me. I need something to do. And me blogging is one to kill the time.
I don't get it why people blog. Which is to tell the whole world. Why? I don't know again.

Well, then it dawned on me. The are so oblivious to the world out there. We won't know it all. Just a lil bit to keep us moving in life.

Ageing

2007-12-06T01:54:00.000+08:00

I got my first warning letter. Kinda happy coz it's the first and kinda sad coz i can't skip more. What I've become? Ishk3!. I must start getting serious in life already.. Gonna marry sooner or later rite?

I seriously need a good job. Hmm, Guardian's management all changing making me more wanna try something else. Coz it's just me, just wanna do things differently. What? Been working there like 8 months already. Wow, tt's long. I mean the longest I work so far. And i digressed to searching jobs online..

Well, almost holidays... And I'm declining in academics. Academic epidemic Alert. RuN!

So long

2007-11-22T23:07:00.000+08:00

Aha.. I'm back! So much happen in my life. Found a love. Actually rekindles a lost love. If it makes sense. Hmm.

School's great, been missing lots of class. Ehe. Slacker me.

Aha, cutting down on cigarettes. Well, serious shit.

Working days seriously ever so little. Take up other job? Hmm. Am I like turning my back on them if i do so?

Pretty much a stable normal happy life indeed.

Chaoz.

Stupid vid

2007-10-16T02:07:00.000+08:00

I got nothing better at night. Well, I can't sleep. So I did this. I know this video is a disgrace to the many bands out there. I apologise. Well, from my shirt you know that it's really unprepared. Mumbling away for the verse coz didn't really write properly.

Well, Chuck and Larry is damn great show by the way.. Wohoo!

Sad

2007-10-11T06:26:00.000+08:00

I am so sad. Mainly coz my headphone, not mine actually, my Bro's spoiled. Must be the kids just slamming it whilst using it. Haiz. Sad. Now I can only hear on the left ear. Secondly, Ramadhan will be gone.

Yupz, I got to start tidying something up before it's too late. Okay.. Tata

Updating again

2007-10-08T00:30:00.000+08:00

I've been sleeping in the day and awake at night throughout the month. Yes, I've become nocturnal. Or weirdo in other sense. I've got problem in my head which I can't seem to make it go away.

Me me Me me. This blog is all bout me me me.

I wanna be a rawkstar, racer. Anything which starts with 'R'. Rapist? Haha.. funny la u faggot. Dumb*ss.

Surprise

2007-09-05T13:25:00.000+08:00

Ya, maya.. U don't know I already owned a motorcycle? I guess coz I never update I guess. So yeah.. I bought second-hand bike not using my money. Phantom TA 200.

Looks something like this.

The funny thing not even a week I'm riding, I fell off from my bike already. Hehe. Lucky juz minor injury. Nothing serious. I was just speeding like any ordinary days as the road was empty when I had to stop to avoid a traffic light which was changing to red. The speed was around 110 - 120 km/hr which to me can be stopped 100 metres away. I failed to because the road was wet. Aquaplaning took place which means there's no grip of the tyres and road. And so, I skided for like 4-5 second before falling down. No vehicles on the road though. Lucky crap. Scratched the right side of my box. That's the most destroyed part.

Yeah. That's it. Some injuries:

So, I just wanna add some words of wisdom. Do not speed especially when the surface is wet. Remember your love ones. Don't be like me. Ehe! KK. Signing outz.

Touched

2007-08-20T01:36:00.000+08:00

I am touched upon hearing the song. Why should there be war due to what lousy leaders say? This song clearly about war among the Americans and Iraqis. All I got to say, follow no false leader. Be strong for those innocent Americans and Iraqis out there. May the innocent rest in peace. Amin.

Well, be deep people. Stop being superficial.

Hand Held High by Linkin Park

Turn my
mic up louder I got to say somethin.
Lightweights step it aside when we come in
Feel it in your chest, the syllables get pumpin
People on the street they panic and start running.
Words on loose leaf sheet complete coming.
I jump in my mind and summon the rhyme i'm dumping.
Healing the blind I promise to let the sun in
Sick of the dark ways we march to the drum and
Jump when they tell us that they wanna to see jumping.
F**k that, I wanna see some fist pumping.
risk something, take back what's yours
say something that you know they might attack you for
cause I'm sick of being treated like I have before
like it's stupid standing for what I'm standing for.
Like this war's really just a different brand of war.
Like it doesn't cater to rich and abandon poor.
Like they understand you in the back of the jet, when you
can't put gas in your tank, and these f**kers are
laughing their way to the bank, cashing the check
asking you to have compassion, AND have SOME respect
for a leader so nervous in an obvious way
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
and the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
in the living room laughing like "what did he say?"

Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen

In my living room watching, I am not laughing,
Cause when it gets tense I know what might happen
The world is cold, the bold men take action
have to react or get blown into fractions.
Ten years old, it's something to see,
another kid my age drug under a jeep,
taken and bound, and found later under a tree,
I wonder if he had thought the next one could be me.
[Hands Held High lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Do you see, the soldiers, they're out today they
Brush the dust from bulletproof vests away.
It's ironic, at times like this you pray,
but a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday.
There's bombs on the buses, bikes, roads,
inside your market,your shops, your clothes,
My dad, He's got a lot of fear I know
but enough pride inside not to let that show.
My brother had a book he would hold with pride
A little red cover with a broken spine.
On the back, he hand wrote a quote inside:
"when the rich wage war, it's the poor who die"
And meanwhile, the leader just talks away
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
and the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry like "what did he say?"

Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen.

With hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you.

With hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you.

With hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you.

With hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you.

With hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you.

With hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you.

...........................................

Okayz, went to firewerkz on sat wif them.

More pics can be found at Friends.

SingFest

2007-08-10T05:01:00.000+08:00

All I got to say is dat SINGFEST was FREAKING AWESOME. The best band for 8 aug is Sugar Ray while 9 aug is Avenge Sevenfold.

Had some crazy time especially on 9 coz it was a younger crowd and crazy too. Well, got to be there to witness it. No point me talking. Wan to sleep ar. I know my blog is freaking boring. Ahax. I made it tt wae. It's usually for me to find out kinda basis. Well, check out singfest site.Maybe they can show what I mean.

K ar lazy to blog. Chaoz!

What telah happen?

2007-07-31T17:26:00.000+08:00

I stood up and thought: "What's happening?". And the reply was: "I don't know!".

Yeah, I'm having dilema with myself. Some might know. Others who don't, then you don't know well enough. Well, I've done crazy things which I'm proud of but some I'm not proud of. Well, all in the process into adulthood I guess.

My TP will be here soon. I juz pray that I'll pass the test. It's all up to me and fate.

It's sad knowing and seeing a downfall happening to urself. But, we shudn't give up I guess. Like Batman movie : "A man falls only to pick himself back up". Being better than yesterdae. It's time for me to pick myself up.

I just wanna express my gratitude to all who has been supporting me and caring for me. I am touched. I know I have making people worried. I apologise.

Ustaz HJ ADI ABDUL RAHMAN passed away 29/7/07. I hope that those who know him offer Al-Fateha. He's a great Ustaz.

To someone, if not u jgn prasan.
I know I've been making you wait. But, I don't know whether it's possible or not. If we are fated, then, there's no running away from it

As Requested

2007-07-11T00:24:00.000+08:00

Rules of the game:
Each player of this game starts off with ten wierd things or habits or little known facts about themselves.
People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten wierd things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
At the end, you must choose SIX people to be tagged and list their names.
NO TAG BACKS!

tagged by http://sugar-liy.livejournal.com
and http://beingaslackerdoesnotmakeualoser.blogspot.com/

1. veri confused.

2. zone out all the time.(thinking,daydreaming,ignoring you)

3. likes crazy things

4. don't like ppl to know his weaknesses

5. talks to myself

6. wishing i cud get married by 20. but can't happen.

7. juz be different and dun care u

8. uncontrolled vulgarities nowades

9. likes flirtin since he's gettin skeptical of love.

10. actualli wans to be good despite being bad

6 people will be: names startin wif s,a,n,f,e,z

Well, I did it taggers. Hah! Who says I wun do it. Another point, I like to prove a point. Ehe.

Hmm, ate B&J's ice-cream. I think it's nice but at tt point i ate it, it was all melting apart. Aite.

2007-07-08T03:29:00.000+08:00

Had an open heart surgery a second ago. So much for Earth Day. Did I tell you how much it hurt? WELL, wth. Im am so fucking fucking pathetic. Omg, what a loser. F*ck.

Just wanna remember the gig

2007-06-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

Well, went to gig with Jefri on Saturday I think.

Gashaus.. I just want to remind myself that I've been there. Haha, it was kind of crappy. But, first time ler, so memorable.

I like the part when a band's singer said "Isn't life fucked up?". And one of the audience; "Life's fucked up". Followed by a reply "Yeah, it is isn't it."

I just thought that it was funny. How bad a condition their life must have been? I wonder. Ehe. Well, I for one think that life isn't fucked up. The people are. Aite. Signing outz.

Updating

2007-06-23T02:01:00.000+08:00

I'm updating again. Hakz. I wonder myself. Maybe, I just want to remember things I should.

All I got to say is that in life, we can view things differently.. Don't you think? It's up to you whether you want to think positively or negatively. So which one do you wanna choose?

My pick will definitely be positivity. That way, all will be happy. Definitely when one is happy, it'll affect the aura around him too right? Right again. Like I said, it's my blog.

I sense my spirit erecting. What the hell u people thinkin'? Sick in the head seh. AHaX. I wish I can help you. Alrite alrite.

I slept my ass off today. Oh crap!.. Just felt like it and happy with it. Let's be extraordinary people. End.

N2O

2007-06-22T04:15:00.000+08:00

I've tried N2O today a.k.a laughing gas. It werked for me. Hmm, I'm getting addicted. Ehe, it can cause brain damage kids. Don't try it excessively kids. Well, Exams nearing. I am soo scared!! Sarcasm there.

Maybe a little though. AHax. I want to be somebody when I grow up seh. I do not want to work in such a low-end job or in something I don't like. This will be my motivation to keep the spirits high! YoSha‡ Wah! ™ seh. Ehe. Cool maut.

I don't know whether I can cope. I wonder bout my beloved friends too. I hope you guys/gals able to go through this ordeal with me. Working and skooling at the same time ain't the same. Got less time, so use time effectively and don't be distracted.

I feel like I have so much love to share. Yeah, if anyone looking for it... I'll be here aite. Juz tag me or wat. Ehe..

Life is so weird. I love it but at the same time I don't. Why oh why! That's a question many can't answer for sure. Aite! I think that'll be my session for today. Take care all.

Finally updatin'

2007-06-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

After so long, I'm gonna update this dusty yet invaluable asset of mine.

Confused I am. Numb I am. Could really relate to linkin park - numb.

I guess it's back to square 1 yet again. But it's all right. It has always been like this aniwaez. If it were to remain this way. I don't see any problem.

I'm sure many know that I smoke already. So, what the hell. I declare it. I feel stupid. But, hopefully, I'll learn from stupidity. So those who's kept in the dark, now you know!

Aha.. An msn messenger pop-out about someone wanna be something they're not right this moment I'm writing. Aha. Kinda funny la. Accept who you are and stop bitchin'. If you do like yourself, just go to the tenth floor la. Ehe.

That shouldn't be the case. Just improve on something you can. At least, you'll feel better. Right? Right again! It's my blog aniway. Who the hell carez.

Common test comming and I'm kinda worried about my current sickening state. It's gonna change. It must change.

My wisdom tooth is showing itself. It's so irritating with the added bonus of running nose. Wow! Can it get any better?

Everything's

2007-06-03T22:49:00.000+08:00

Everything's seems to be cool.. Juz the way it's meant to be.. Hakz, Like real je. Well, my progress in life, it's like that la.. Interesting one.. Letting it loose for me.. Well, I hope not too loose coz it's gonna take me to somewhere I might regret.

Well, I'm basically suffering from my studies. I got a 'gonna-repeat-a-module-or-two' kinda feeling. Ahh!! I'm not ready for that kind of bull.. No!! Help me! Anyone.. Thank you.

Broken hearted

2007-05-26T12:06:00.000+08:00

Broken hearted I am.. But I guess it's alright. Only time will heal. Till I find it.

Busy as hell

2007-05-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

I've been busy as hell this week, skewl werk and all. I am seriously feeling dragged by a train instead of me chasing the train. Get me? If not, never mind. Nobody really understands me anyway. Or at least I claim.

Argh.. !! Haiz, I really need to get rid of my fears. I'm scared of height, etc.,etc. I feel so weak. So cowardly. So loserish. Ketam!

I'm planning not to sleep tonight. I got to push myself. I just got to. Failing is just not option for me although I admit I've failed in many aspects.

Mood =: Lonely reTard

He

2007-05-05T00:46:00.000+08:00

He's been restless all day due to chemical reactions taking place in his body. His mind too was disturbed. How clotted it was. Thinking around and around with no end in mind.

Well, there's an end but he could see that he wouldn't meet the end. Therefore what goes around comes around. He feels like he has a lot of weight on his shoulders. He's going to dislocate them any time soon. Not unless someone could help him. Not just anyone, but someone who could drive him. Like a confidante.

He's been thinking about it for quite some time. But, he just couldn't bear to face rejection yet again. He did not want to be trapped in anyone's trickery. Also, he did not think she was ready. He made up his mind to let her go just like what he always did. Although he's hurt inside, he didn't mind as long she's happy.

He'll be there when there is a need. He'll continue waiting. Waiting for the right time. Maybe his right time might be too late. But he's relented nevertheless.

Long Labour

2007-05-01T16:51:00.000+08:00

Ahh!!.. New roster for work is here. I'll be werking on tues,weds,thurs and sun throughtout the month of May.. Penat seh!! Hmm, they should really start hiring people. Hmm.. Looks like I have to squeeze my time. Oh well oh well.

Long battle

2007-04-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hello, been away for a while. I've been busy and I'm proud if it. Not totally coz I blew some goals.

Well, I kinda step on the wrong foot in skewl. Been missing in classes. A great start to a great ending I must say. Aha.. Well, work is fine. I've been tested to do cashiering at the atrium in Hougang Mall alone just now. Although I messed up at the start, I managed to amend my mistakes..

We learn from failures. I learned that lesson well indeed. Especially due to motor practical. I'm on road now.. Wohoo! But got to wait like a week or so before I can go for prac again coz got no slot. Compliments to Aslam for accompanying me make my PDL.

I've made mistakes.. I must ammend it.. So long.

Freaking loser

2007-04-17T15:33:00.001+08:00

Blog temporarily be stopped.

Freaking loser

2007-04-17T15:33:00.000+08:00

Blog temporarily be stopped.

Appetite

2007-04-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

I hunger.. Today, I ate like no other. I suddenly got cravings. Ehe. Should I mind? Hmm, I don't know. Well, I'll figure some other time.

Some people work their ass out to get what they want. While some, gets it anyway. Others, don't get it at all. I don't know how to continue.

Focus the lamp-post.

We can only try but the rest is up to fate. Believe me.

Believing is one powerful tool one can possess.

Don't give sarcastic remark that hurts.

Time to sleep.

Can't sleep

2007-04-10T03:11:00.000+08:00

I so can't sleep right now. Lucky working night tomorrow. If not die lah. A lot of things been running in my mind preventing myself to go to sleep. Haiz.

Life, amazing. So simple yet complicated.

There's something missing in me. I'm not sure and don't know what issit. Hmm, I'm sure I'll find it somewhere along my journey. Till the time is right.

Tough Luck

2007-04-04T23:22:00.000+08:00

I went to town today in mind to redeem a card. Already been done. So just walk2 there with my friends.

Yesterday was my first day. Tommorow gonna be my second. Time flies. It's gonna be weeks to months really soon.

Oukay2, i want to talk about my first day of werk in Guardian. I kept bugging my full-timer. Not the part I'm looking forward to share.

There's this shoplifter. He looks like a crook. If I see him again, I'll kick his ass out. Decided not to share. Tired. Nite.

I so got a work

2007-04-02T19:18:00.000+08:00

Cheerios! I am back. Delighted I am. Why? Because I so got myself a job already. Where? At Guardian Hougang Mall. Thanks to who? My sister of course. Better something than nothing.

Well, it's basically a female working environment. I'll be the only guy there apart from a pharmacist there. Well,the age gap is there. Hmm.. Heck ar.. At least I got a job. Intending to stay there for a year or so. Hell yeah.

I went for NASTRO interview just now. To me, I never really treat it like an interview. I just want to mix around. That's all. I realised that people don't always have a plan in hand everytime.

The end.

Bowling

2007-03-31T05:04:00.000+08:00

Midnight bowling was great. Ahax. Long time never bowl. Well, I sux at the game. Not totally but mostly. I need help. I can't curl the ball. Teach me. I wanna learn.

Azeera's service quality sux to the maximus. It's a coffeeshop located in Hougang South. Getting on my friend's nerve. Not me though. Don't know why hmm.

Cycling home was great. It felt so fast to reachhome as compared to walking home for like 400 metres or so.

Unplanned

2007-03-29T22:43:00.000+08:00

They say that failing to plan is planning to fail. I dedicate this line to myself and peeps out there who are aimless. Ahax. :)..

Feeling lousy. So much time to spare but all wasted.

Can't help it. I must recite the event which occured just now. So it goes...

I took 2 buses from home. I realised that I was still early. So, I stopped to friend's place. And there he was, in his house, stuck. Haha. He couldn't find his keys to unlock himself to the world outside beyond his imagining. So he's there finding his golden ticket while I sat outside enjoying myself to some tunes from my handphone.

The clock ticked while I tocked. So it tick-tock and I had to go. I went to riding school without him. A pity in the pocket for my friend. What could I haf done? Hmm, nothing. Haha. Sorry man I left you. I had to do what I had to do. NachosChachos.

Argh! (pirate style) Anyone seen drop it on me - Ricky Martin video? It dun have to have reason. Just a mere question. Stop contemplating about it. K lah. Bye bye angels. *cough*

*chronic incessant cough*

That hurtz.

A call

2007-03-26T21:29:00.000+08:00

I was sleeping soundly when I heard a falsetto. I was awaken and was in daze. It was my mum. Nothing happened. Hehe. Juz that I checked my handphone and there was missed call. I pondered for a while and asked myself: "Who could it be? Hmm..". Then, I concluded it must be a job calling me.

And so I thought. I became anxious and my palm felt wet. I called back only to find out that it was the ASTROs. Ceh! I was like okay. Since I got nothing to do anyway, why not just try out to be in the sub committee. Haha.

I passed my Riding Theory Test. Can't wait to finish the ordeal of taking license. Halfway there. Hang in there. YOSHA! Aha.. That was it. The war cry. Ehe.

I somehow feel that I'm leading a meagre life. Hmm, mandatory to something. Signing outz.

Late night movie

2007-03-24T12:55:00.000+08:00

Finally, 300 show can be struck off from my list. Hell yeah, late night movie rules.

results outz

2007-03-21T21:18:00.000+08:00

Results are outz. I'm not repeating any modules. Thank God. I did slightly better this time around. From GPA of 2.90 to 3.092. That's enough for me to survive.

Yeah, went job hunting yet again. Today's paper not much jobs though. So, kinda digress to Pasir Ris. Yeap.

Results

2007-03-20T00:52:00.000+08:00

Results will be out approximately in 23 hours from now. Confirm Crap! Haha.. Scraping through even more this time around. Juz hope there isn't any failures. If not, I'd commit suicide seh. Haha, like real. I'd rather suffer in earth's hell than real hell.

Tiring sia looking for work. Racist crapz. Sad sia. What the hell man. I hope to find one. It's be cool if I could get a job for levi's or something. Like style like that. Or I had a good first impression from the workers there. That's all.

Importance of happiness

2007-03-17T01:22:00.000+08:00

It is important for we, human beings, to stay happy. Aren't I right? I think that being happy makes you look younger. That's what I think after comparing people. Is this a valid reason? Or is it all just a coincidence? I wonder.

One more thing, follow up with situation and times. Time for me to zzzz..

No Job

2007-03-14T23:36:00.000+08:00

It's so hard finding a job nowadays. I wonder when will I have enough money to get married. Wait long2 la like this. Aha.

I've had better make my ideas work. I've been brainstorming. Well, comes naturally at times. But it sounds good. At least to me. If only my plans are able to work. If only I have the knowledge to venture. If only pigs can fly. YEaH. That's for reality check. Got to somehow.

I so wanna watch 300. I just love the traditional war. It's so take a lot of guts. Unlike now, too dependent on technology. If only I could make a something to destroy technology. It'd be pretty awesome. Too bad I ain't smart, clever and etc. Im not a freak. Ehe.

Im jobless. Job with a big LESS. Meaning less a job which derives at jobless. Get it? It's okay if you don't. I've been in watching MTv. I like Yung-Joc - It's Going Down. It's the video clip, his move are like accalerating the throttle. Funny/cool/crapz. Some Good Charlotte , Fallout and Kelis(mcm Kilas).Im out la.

Beach

2007-03-13T21:18:00.000+08:00

Create Your Own

It speaks for itself.

Flustered

2007-03-10T03:18:00.000+08:00

I feel so flustered right now. ARGHH!!! haiz. crap. Why can't I make it through? Wasn't I good enough.? Or is it me with judgmental error. Haiz. Now, I can't sleep. Crap. I ain't giving up ar! No matter what, I won't give up!

Can't move

2007-03-08T11:58:00.000+08:00

I can safely say that I can't move on further after tomorrow. Sad isn't it. It's for the better I somehow feel. It all balances off one another I guess. Juz waiting in anticipation for now. If it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be. But we gotta try.

Anywayz. class of MIT 0603, I deeply apologise for my actions. I'm just a self-centered piece of junk. Thankz for everything though.

. .... ..........

Doing things

2007-03-05T01:35:00.000+08:00

Hey all. Guess I haven't updated for a while now. Ahax, been having fun lately. yeah, adventure and all. Feels in need sometimes but happy nevertheless. Hell yeah, exams over.

Im so slacking my ass at home watching HEROES. Some movies too. Well, actualli just Ghost Rider. Been in IRC. I've found it to be rather dull. So yeah. I got a long way to go till school reopens again.

Got to work which I am vigorously finding. Got to go back to my exercise routine which I have been seriously neglecting. Got to go back on track again. I've got so much got-to's which I shan't elaborate coz I realli need to sit down and pen it down.

Yeah, looking forward to the picnic. I hope it doesn't rain and all. I suddenly remembered my class chalet. Okay, tt one got to see.

Aite that would be all.

Self-note: CIFAMOS

Rusty

2007-02-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

Sorry blog for leaving you to dust.

I've got a paper left to go. WooHOO!

Basically, what I am doing right now is rotting. Damn! I feel useless. Better start something healthy already.

I've been having a perplexed mind lately. Yeah, I decided to let it go. But, i'll still be there. Hmm. Goodbye little birdie. Sounds so wrong. Ahax.

. . . .

fac

2007-02-15T19:19:00.000+08:00

Finally did my class 2b license practical 1. And guess what...!! I failed. Haha. Standard la. They will always fail the orientation group to make money. Haha.

Yup, werking at some factory now. Tired nevertheless. So I took my own off day now. Wanted to go. But, I know my body won't be able to adapt that quickly. Below is my pass. Was bored at that point of time.

Just now met up with Ashikin, Shu Xian and Fatin to study for VB. Quality studying I must say. haha.

You're rite!

Spasm of sarcasm there. Made this while waiting for them. Seriously waiting for them.

It's just dried leaves on the ground.

restless

2007-02-12T12:09:00.000+08:00

I feel like I've got so much thing to do. But I ain't got time. Stretching myself to the maximum. Or what I like to say nowadaes "Siow On". Tired, restless. Lost in time. Im so anxious, excited, nervous, hopeful, high-spirited, dampened and what knot all at the same time. I shall endure though, this is a phase of my life where im busy as hell. Okay. Signing out. Sha.

End of pizza career

2007-02-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

Later today, by 5pm to be exact. My pizza career will be ended. I feel that I'll miss werking there. But then again, I feel that pizza is quiting on me since they are seizing operation soon and everything. Well, at least I got the experience in F&B. That's good enough already. Sorry pizza Hut for turning my back on you. Good bye.

Nite nitey nitey.

Lame

2007-02-09T01:00:00.000+08:00

Today, I went to TP to help Syafiq. But, I wasn't of much help. Duh! Met some secondary mates. Missed some of them. Well, Syafiq and I started our lame conversation. Speaking of lame, I met this guy who's lame literally. That person was a colleague. That person told me that he can't walk properly cause of soccer. But in actual fact, he's lame literally.

Hmm, inside, I feel sympathetic for that person. If I were that person, I'd too lie to others around. Haiz. So the moral of the story is not to mock others and accept who we are. WE are fortunate and there are unfortunates out there. Help them instead of mocking them please.

Oukay.. Ouh, my preach to work on my lower body. Ya, I think my upper bod is enough for now. So, got to train abs and lose my spare tyre. Meaning, Minimum of 3 and maximum of 5 jogging days and 3 days of maintaining upper bod. Of course, dietry issue. Foo! Some serious shit planned out here. Gotta do it.. Gotta adjust my bod already.. Target: Hari Raya 07'

Signing Outz.

Uncontrollable.

2007-02-04T12:53:00.000+08:00

Went pizza hut training juz yesterdae @ Kallang.

Within

The feeling within,
Trying to show,
The movement outside,
will surely follow,

One day for sure,
It'll be be portrayed,
Though fear restrict,
We gotta see the verdict,

What do you predict?
The Unpredicted?
As futile as it may seem,
I will try no matter what.

-shalihin-

Awesome

2007-02-03T01:45:00.000+08:00

Friday is today. Basically, despite the projects and lesson, had fun playing soccer. To me, it brings back memories that is fading away from my life. I've almost forgotten the glory days. Although I'm rusty in the sport, hey! some skill still remains intact.

Was very very tiring. It was great nevertheless.

I went for NYPMS(Nyp Muslim Society) passing ceromony. Hmm..

Return to path

2007-01-31T03:32:00.000+08:00

Well, todae I played pool after skewl with the guyz. They tot I was going to do my disappearing act after meeting Hafiz coincidentally. Lol. But, I didn't run away. I somehow felt the friend's presence therefore I never run.

Some of the guys signing up soccer for sports carnival. Ahax, I doubt we'll get through far but hey, anything can happen u see. Which mean got to buy street soccer shoes.

I went home to sleep after that. Met up with Asriman n Hafiz @ NYP. I was lucky as I managed to get all the way into the lab. Random people was around for me to get in the main gate and Blk L labs.

Chatted. Been going home late lately because got no time to lepak while working and all. So, got to sacrifice some sleep I must say.

While going home, I thought that life is fragile. We can die anytime. At that point, I thought that i haven't performed my prayers yet. If I were to die, jialat to me. But, I managed to get home safely but still procrastinating my prayer. I'm saddened for always procratinating it. The works of Syaitan.

I watched this and was inspired. My faith to Allah was tested. I claim myself as a Muslim but how far do I know about Islam. Less than 10% I think.

In this video, is the conversion to Islam of a rapper from Outlawz. I ever knowing so little about Islam am inspired to know more. This video too shows that people are trying so hard to escape from their current state but fools like myself are trying to get into these crappy lives. Why? Why are we not contented by the shelter we have upon us? Our family around us and friends around us? Strange isn't it? True but strange(benar tapi pelik. LOL).

I rest my case for todae. But, I sincerely hope that we take a closer look at Islam be you a Muslim or non-Muslim. I just want we, people, to find the right way and save ourselves before it's too late. May peace be upon you brothers and sisters.

2pac

2007-01-31T02:17:00.000+08:00

2PAC LYRICS

"Changes"

[1]
Come on come on
I see no changes wake up in the morning and I ask myself
is life worth living should I blast myself?
I'm tired of bein' poor & even worse I'm black
my stomach hurts so I'm lookin' for a purse to snatch
Cops give a damn about a negro
pull the trigger kill a nigga he's a hero
Give the crack to the kids who the hell cares
one less hungry mouth on the welfare
First ship 'em dope & let 'em deal the brothers
give 'em guns step back watch 'em kill each other
It's time to fight back that's what Huey said
2 shots in the dark now Huey's dead
I got love for my brother but we can never go nowhere
unless we share with each other
We gotta start makin' changes
learn to see me as a brother instead of 2 distant strangers
and that's how it's supposed to be
How can the Devil take a brother if he's close to me?
I'd love to go back to when we played as kids
but things changed, and that's the way it is

[Bridge w/ changing ad libs]
Come on come on
That's just the way it is
Things'll never be the same
That's just the way it is
aww yeah
[Repeat]

[2]
I see no changes all I see is racist faces
misplaced hate makes disgrace to races
We under I wonder what it takes to make this
one better place, let's erase the wasted
Take the evil out the people they'll be acting right
'cause both black and white is smokin' crack tonight
and only time we chill is when we kill each other
it takes skill to be real, time to heal each other
And although it seems heaven sent
We ain't ready, to see a black President, uhh
It ain't a secret don't conceal the fact
the penitentiary's packed, and it's filled with blacks
But some things will never change
try to show another way but you stayin' in the dope game
Now tell me what's a mother to do
bein' real don't appeal to the brother in you
You gotta operate the easy way
"I made a G today" But you made it in a sleazy way
sellin' crack to the kid. " I gotta get paid,"
Well hey, well that's the way it is

[Bridge]

[Talking:]
We gotta make a change...
It's time for us as a people to start makin' some changes.
Let's change the way we eat, let's change the way we live
and let's change the way we treat each other.
You see the old way wasn't working so it's on us to do
what we gotta do, to survive.

[3]
And still I see no changes can't a brother get a little peace
It's war on the streets & the war in the Middle East
Instead of war on poverty they got a war on drugs
so the police can bother me
And I ain't never did a crime I ain't have to do
But now I'm back with the facts givin' it back to you
Don't let 'em jack you up, back you up,
crack you up and pimp smack you up
You gotta learn to hold ya own
they get jealous when they see ya with ya mobile phone
But tell the cops they can't touch this
I don't trust this when they try to rush I bust this
That's the sound of my tool you say it ain't cool
my mama didn't raise no fool
And as long as I stay black I gotta stay strapped
& I never get to lay back
'Cause I always got to worry 'bout the pay backs
some punk that I roughed up way back
comin' back after all these years
rat-tat-tat-tat-tat that's the way it is uhh

[Bridge 'til fade]

Hoobastank

2007-01-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

Hoobastank in Fort Caning todae. WEll, so what? I'm at home. Today has got to be one of my wasted days. Did nothing much except for usual hang out. Argh.. Haiz. Blank.. Blank.. Blank.. Ah, I seriously need haircut. Now like Bush already. I feel myself stuck. Stranded on an island. Not moving on with the rest of the world.

Crap, crap, lotsa crap. Hmm, I dun noe wat to think anymore. Haiz, it's alwaes the case of that. Argh.. Here I go, scream my lungs out..!!

Yaya.. Whatever.. watever. ok then. outz --->

bus 162

2007-01-20T13:58:00.000+08:00

Maybe it's just me.. But I was in awe when I stepped into this bus. Jakon. It was cozy I must say. Although, it can't accomodate lotsa ppl. But, COOL la. This bus is 162. Wouldn't haf been into one had not for the extremely long queue for 72.

tired

2007-01-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

Hello.. Back from work again. Tired. I'm getting the hang of it. I think in 2-3 weeks time, it's nothing already. Though I noe I'm slow and stubborn now. But, will work. I wanna get my motorcycle license u see.. Will be registering pretty soon. Lotsa things in my head to achieve my dreams.

Hmm, I'm a dreamer. Somewhat a doer too. Must achieve a doer status.

I wanna chill.. Anyone wanna chill wif me? If u do, tell me aite.

Oh ya.. I forgot.. I got to rush all my project. Submission is all next week. Mati katak lah.. K lah, I'd better start now. If not I won't start at all. K chaoz. C ya. Guten Nite!

Wat's the word?

2007-01-08T19:47:00.000+08:00

What's the word Im looking for here.. Hmm. Aha! Lethargic. That's what Im feeling. So exhausted to the point where I got to skip my lecture. Aha. Now, my neck is kinda aching. Not so bad after playing my guitar. Hmm, is there any particular theory behind playing instrument and pain-relieving? Well oh well.. I know Im kinda whinning right now coz of work. Well, juz started u see. So it takes time to configure myself la.

My life is great now. I see great things this year. I just do. Hmm.. Yosha! Best wishes to all in your endeavours. Gutbye!

Back from work

2007-01-06T17:06:00.000+08:00

Yeap.. Started work today. It felt like work orite. Overall it's okay. Juz that I'm kind of slow and damn forgetful. Hmm, I should pick up the speed already. I think I know the basic system of it. I hope my friend who's sick join me soon, coz it'll be fun then.

Missioner

2007-01-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

Well, yesterday while I was waiting for a friend alone, at Nyp Mac's, a guy approached me. At first he said he wanted to talk to me. So, why not? I let the the guy sit on my table to let him talk. Only then did I saw 'holy bible' in his hands which he put on the table. I was like okay. He's a missioner. He's going to psycho me. Aite, I was calm and listened what he had to say. And so called chatted for like 15 mins or so. Well, sorry to say it wasn't that impressive. I can't deny the history before Christ or Nabi Isa are identical. But Christ as son of god? I don't believe that. Furthermore of the over 60 versions of bible and 20+ authors. Human makes mistakes rite? I juz couldn't bring myself to buy that. So sorry. Not being prejudice or watsoever. It's juz my opinion.

To whoever it may concern, take care. I'll be there, juz that u wun realise it.

My Bro tunang

2007-01-02T17:12:00.000+08:00

Semalam dilangsungkan pertunangan Abang aku. Insyallah akan bernikah akhir tahun ini. Ya. Malam pulak lepak ngan si Hafiz sampai ke pagi. Dah lama tak bual panjang katakan. Banyak pelajaran yang dipelajari anatara satu sama lain. Bistu, aku balik naik bas. Ngantuk sangat. Aku knock out kat bas sampai terlajak. Dah lah kaki aku melecet sebab jalan pakai capal. Apa punye nasib. Terpaksa jalan balik. Ez-link pun kosong katakan. Dah, tido jugak best. Dah bangun duduk depan com. Tgk ape yang patut aku buat. Harap2, kerje accepted je tomolo. Then, im closer to my dream. Selamatz.

Ukays

2006-12-30T02:13:00.000+08:00

Heard this song on the way to mosque. Reliving the old days.

Life

2006-12-22T01:17:00.000+08:00

There is much unexplored side of life that haf yet been unravelled after all these years. It could be a good thing or a bad thing. But, what we need to remember is.. what if... What if the the skies should tumble and fall at the moment when we are doing these things.. Would we regret it? Would we Njoy ourselves in heaven or would we suffer in hell?

Yup! This I got to remind myself. CONSTANTLY. I just wish that when I die, I'd die in a state of peace. Preferably when performing a prayer. Coz when I die, I don't want to be afraid. I don't want to be afraid of crossing over. Death is inevitable. So come prepared. May we be away from the blaze.

Goodbye.

interview

2006-12-19T22:55:00.000+08:00

So today had an interview with the pizza hut. Decided to write this entry coz before the interview, there was this chinese girl in green. It was raining just now. So, she was at the busstop. I can see her looking at the sky to see whether she shud just walk in the rain. I was already in front of her when I noticed her. As I had an umbrella, offered her shelter by saying:"U need a lift?". Then in my head, what sia lift.. I haf vehicle or wat? But, she understood what I meant so it doesn't matter. She replied "It's okay". However I just held the umbrella above us and asked whether she was in hurry. And that's that.. Arlarmak.. Mistake la, shud had developed sth from there rite. It was my first time so excusable. Next time, I'll make up some strategy. Tactic to bare in mind. So readers.. This is a tip im giving u FOC. Maybe I should like come out with a book "Strategies to catch a fish". Haha.. Im crapping arite. GTG(good to go)

Work

2006-12-16T17:00:00.000+08:00

At this rate I'm going, I might have to scrap the idea of having license. Haiz.. Not scrap totally. Juz later in life ar. I must, I will get a job near home. Last resort, take job further away from home. Right now, I can't really, go all out everywhere to find job coz using adult fare for transport. Better not waste it and wait till I have concession. Reminds me that I got to get ready my resume. Just in case.

This past two days, have been learning cooking from the greatest cook ever, my mum. Everyone will say their mum is the best cook I guess. So far, I've fried noodles and make bone soup(sup tulang). I think I should give myself a tap on the shoulder for doing so well. Haha. I think after learning malay cooking, I wanna learn Italian, German and French cooking. So, I could only offer the best meals for my wife in the future. Hehe..

Juz working my way to be all-rounder I guess.. Okay, I'm off. Back to 5-6km jog. Ahh!! I will time myself tis time.

abrasion

2006-12-15T20:08:00.000+08:00

Hey y'll.. I'm now holidaying already. 2 weeks. Wonder what to do.. Actualli I got sth in mind already. Juz now, I jogged for 5-6 km at my my favourite Punggol Park. It took me around an hour I think. It was all worth it I should say. Except the part for nipple abrasion ar. Always happen for long distance running. What to do ar? I think I put tape on it. Hopefully will solve the problem.

Tired especially after the run. I wonder what the marathon runners out there are thinking. Crazy sia. Totally insane to go to such painstaking effort. For what? Crazy people do crazy things. Maybe should try marathon distance one day to see whether I make it alive or not. Haha.

I must not stop trying. I must be punctual. Wait and see. Just wait and see.. :)

all-rounder over-achiever

2006-12-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

All-rounder over-achiever. Is it plausible? But, it'd be good if anyone could ever fit into that category. I want to make that happen. It'll take consistency and great power of will. I will be overly overjoyed even if I'd step on the half-way mark. I feel that the universe can be formed into an equation. The equation is square root of -2. Haha, sure there's error. I think we human can never achieve to such great stage. Coz, we can't even use 50% of our brain let alone 100%. Even Einstein's unification theory has not been able to do so because he never take in consideration of quantum physics.

Digress a bit. My apologies. So, I just want life to be balanced. That's all. Musical, physical, spiritual, intellectual and basically every aspects. It'd be cool wouldn't it? If we think really far, we can only imagine ourselves dying. That's the furthest we can ever go. So, think. Really think. What happens after you die? Ur spirit suddenly die too or juz the body is dead? Mysteries of life. The answer is out there. You got to search the truth.

SNAP!

Back to reality,I'm exhausted. Juz training by triceps more and burn fat. Let it burn! BURN!

I'm only human

2006-12-09T10:16:00.000+08:00

Hi! Yesterday was Friday. Today is Saturday. Tommorow is Sunday. What's the difference between Friday and Sunday? The day of course. Constantly trying to change for the better. Seems like I'm facing some hurdles although I'm on a gentle downward slope.

Yesterday, played pool with my friends. This time around I concentrated harder to ensure win. It paid off by a winning streak. The competitive spirit just kicked in. I know I got only myself to beat. I will beat myself eventually. After that, 'lepak' with Asriman for hours. We cannot only say what we want to do, we must put action. If not, nothing going to happen even when we die.

Mistakes mistakes. Argh! It feels so hard for me to prevent. Now I know that I better back off when I'm sleepy. Furthermore, don't assume please and control your words. Shalihin, it's unhealthy for you. After a mistake made, would the one you hurt forgive you? That's another factor altogether. Hard life. Life is hard. Believe it when I say. Signing out.

Headphone

2006-12-04T19:12:00.000+08:00

Haiyah.. My headphone's mic lose already. Juz bought it like a week ago. Haiz.. should really consider buying schenheizer. Ahax.. like rich like dat. Anyways, yesterday back to gym. So current speed is 13.40m for 2.4km at average speed of 10.4.. Slowly2 to work to the top. So after gym yesterday, hang out at our base to discuss about a feast. Was like planning for 2 hrs. Then, found out 31 Dec is Hari Raya Haji(Aidiladha). Arlarmak. So, cannot see fireworks already.. How now?

Just now I had 2 tests. Hmm.. Kaoz. Expected projection to be sucky. As always ar. I cabut Graphic Design halfway just now. Aha.
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!Reflections
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Now, I've planted myself new code of life. Since I'm a teenager, BGR seems to be a big thing. Well, not to me anymore. I've decided to live by the code of friendship instead. So, if I were to like someone vice versa. Then too bad la. Wait for me to ask my parents to 'masuk meminang'. Wonder if the code will be decoded..

Long day

2006-11-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

Today is Thursday. The longest day of school for me. 3hrs lab followed by 3hrs lecture. Boring, tiring, crappy and everything bad. So negative huh? Yup. Followed by CCT interim which takes like 45 mins. Luckily, planned out during lecture. If not, die like a frog. Don't you sometimes wish that ur life is interesting like crap. Instead of these reality, ur stories go something like...

I took a helicopter to school. I parachuted out of the helicopter and landed near the fountain. Everyone was stunned in my presence. I folded my parachute and walk on the corridor to go to class. Everyone was like idoling me. So I said to them: "Don't idolise me! I am only human. I am like the rest of you. Just have faith. Where there's life, there's hope!". In my mind: "What talking me?". Although it wasn't a perfect speech, people just nod their head in agreement. What's in their head? So anyways, during break, my great love, was already there waiting for me at our usual veranda. The sight of her could only make me fonder and fonder of her. Just that brightened the day altogether after 2 hrs of Lab(Graphic Design).

So i took her to space to see the world. It was fun. (i'm tired.. can't think)

the end

Have you ever?

2006-11-27T18:00:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt sad for something that you know you can't achieve? That's what Im feeling after school today. Just staring in the space. Just facing to reality.

a little routine

2006-11-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

Today is Sunday. Sunday = gym. Back to gym again. Well, the learning point for me today is that I haf to run with speed of 11 on the threadmill for 2.4km if i wanna attain 10 mins time. It's gonna be a very tough journey to get there. Current time still 15mins. With much persistence. Impossible is nothing. Also, I need to rotate the style of carrying weights now and then for productivity. Must train triceps too cause it's weak.

Recently, my wild side is kicking in. But, somehow, I just can't. I'm relieved too. There are just too much negativity than positive. Getting my senses back. I'm in need of work. I got to be independent. If not, I won't be able to support myself let alone others.

Still caught up with my school work. As for my DEP project, it's progressing. Haiz, very sad. Some smart Alex or Alexis raised the bar by using flash. Well, need to do some homework for German tomorrow. Tcheautz!(It it correct?I don't even know goodbye in German)

Research

2006-11-25T01:41:00.000+08:00

Notice the time. It's quite late right. Yeah , right. Muaha. I drank some coffee for ur info. Juz to hype myself a little. Initially, wanted to like clear my unfinished assignments. Well, i got lotsa crapz still holding on my desktop.

So instead of doing those ass(assignments), i digress myself yet again. Yup, I did some research on people that is. With much convenience, I can easily find out roughly what kind of character they are. I just like my lecturer Mr.Hamid when he says(Easily! easily $10000). Never escape my head. Niwaex, I'm just relieved after knowing the characters.

Well, not my shirt size. So, eventually. Eventually. Tick tock tick tock. There's more to come. Sighing in a good way. LOLlipop.

stuck in my head

2006-11-24T00:13:00.000+08:00

Recently, I 've got something stuck in my head. I can't seem to get it out of my mind. It's not that too important for now. It's just that, haiz. Disappointed nevertheless.

Keep it real Shalihin.

Cool.

Maintain your composure.

Be nice to everbody.

Don't be demoralised.

Just got to try. The rest is fate.

What do you see beyond your fist?

time flies

2006-11-09T22:32:00.000+08:00

It's been almost a month since I blog. Reason being, I feel like there's nothing interesting to share. It's coming to the forth week of poly semester 2. I feel like, the time is flying top speed. There's a funny yet disturbing plot taking place in school. I can't share it online because I do not want anyone to get hurt wif my writing. That's is why I feel writing journal on paper is best. You don't have to worry about what people going to feel because they're not going to read it.

Yup, I think I need to foster social cohesions among the Malays in MIT. Then, form a 'clan'. That way, we all have a mix to the cultures. If not, sianz ar. I have in mind the recruits for it. Haha, see how it goes ar. Juz closer the bond a bit here and there and hopefully last forever. So there's more friends and more meaning to life. Signing out.

1 more week to go

2006-10-10T03:15:00.000+08:00

It's so sad that the holidays is going to say goodbye. Goodbye holidays. And before you know it, the fasting month is going to be over soon too.. It's saddening. I'm actually straightening my ways. But then, Ramadhan(month of fasting) will go away leaving me. Haiz, then, I may do the bad things I do.. And I'll have to wait for another 11 months to pass after that.

Well, practically the holidays, I spent time with sleeping and fostering social cohesion. Hmm.. and making myself closer to who I am and Allah.

I'm going to rant about a place which i dislike. For one is the Geylang Bazaar. Not that Im prejudice against my own race but just, I don't like that way. It's so freaking hot.. The carbon monoxide was tremendous and I was gasping for fresh air. Yup, so many malays. I can say it is a place of maksiat(evil doings). Yup, as a Muslim, I want the muslims to be real muslims and not just admiting wihout practice. And the most important for me, is never skip prayers and cover your aurah. It may sound simple. But, it's not with the constant influence of peers and syaitan(devil).

Now, Im going to talk about death. Death is so real. U can't run nor hide from it. So if you have the time, which we have but spend it on meaningless things, just give a thought about it. Are we prepared to die?

Transforming myself again. A new semester will be a new me. To the better. Checklist for improvements:
1) Make appoint to get to know someone
2) CCA(still considering)

Design blog

2006-09-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

Finally, I did the this simple blogskin which I've told myself to do way long before. Just using css. Operation Furyon.

Death of an Uncle

2006-09-20T19:13:00.000+08:00

Another death occured after 9 days since my Grandfather passed away. Well, people are getting old. I am getting old. Not long after, it's time for me to die. The surprise was that he died on his birthday. Well, every death hints us to repent, to ammend our ways. That is the most important lesson we should learn. Well, im tired. So I excuse myself.

Results are out for 1st semester

2006-09-20T01:45:00.000+08:00

Finally the results are out. My GPA is 2.900. Cun2.. Well, Not the best performance yet. But, Alhamdulilah. Although I had a time when I thought I couldn't catch up especially when I fell ill for like 2 and half weeks which paralysed me. My brain got stuck and I got to take a common test when I just return skewl. Haha.. It makes wonderful memories now. Not forgetting distraction of World Cup. Hmm.. I'm just contented. Glad that Allah decide to give me hope and make me strive to achieve for it. That's all I got to say. WORK HARD YOUNG ONE.

Checklist of movies I recently watched

2006-09-20T00:19:00.000+08:00

1)Kingdom Of Heaven
2)Devil Wears Prada
3)Little Man
4)The Host
5)Chuck

Well, these are the titles which I watched in like 3 days. Basically, for me, the best is Kindom Of Heaven.I know it's old but I just like the old fashion war. The slicing of throats and the squirting of blood. It's a real deal unlike now. Shot from afar without knowing where they came from.

Next, I choose The Host. Korean show anyway. It's good because when the tension is arising, there will be comic relief which kinda give you a mix feeling of what to feel. And sadness too.

Thirdly, I'd give the place to little man. It's funny and kind of dumb too. Lol. The laughter begins when it get so called sexual.

Fourth, to Chuck. Action packed with lots of modern killing. Well, it's about a proffesional killer. What you expect? Then some sexual scene which in fact was the pinnacle of the show. Why? It's like a fantasy. That's all.But doesn't reveal much. Don't worry. I think it's M-18

Lastly, the devil wears Prada. It's girlish show. For those who too into fashion. This show is for you. The show will make know how fashion can change you from your real goal. Crap! Standard, the girl, Andrea, supposedly had sex with two men. I'm against this as a Muslim. I mean, do you like it to have a wife or husband who had sex with others be it when they are not married or after marriage.

That's was the review. Choose your movies wisely.

For Dota Fanatics

2006-09-18T00:55:00.000+08:00

Death of my grandfather

2006-09-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

I could picture him vividly in my mind. The body without soul juz lying there. To me, there's a lot that I've learned from it. We are made of soil and that's where we will return. Ultimately, we got to go when Allah calls us. We can only bring three things with us. Our deeds, our charity and the prayers of our children. I'll try my best to achieve these 3 important objectives. Insyallah. Death comes whenever they want, so prepare ourselves before it's to late. Wasalam.

Last paper

2006-08-28T22:38:00.000+08:00

Finally down to a paper. The reason for blogging is just to digress myself from actually studying which I should be doing. After this final paper.. Then what? Ha.. Self-improvement time. Enjoy. Maybe, work? Hmm, seems to be a lucrative option huh? I'll think bout it. I think I fared average as a whole. Yeah, teacher's day coming along, I don't know what to do. Should I get something or just be there for them?

I really am balding, DAMMIT!(its my course DMIT) Oh well, why so vexed over such a trivial matter. It's fate, it's not that I can do anything bout it. Can I? Chaoz. Restless.

Restriction

2006-08-20T20:29:00.000+08:00

Restriction, why do we restrict ourselves from doing what we really want to do? Why? Why do we not look at other alternatives? If you have a stinking job, would you stick to it forever? Or would you, work hard and find a job of your dreams? Why do some people think lowly of themselves? When in actual fact, they got what it takes without knowing it. Why do some people think so highly of themselves when in the actual fact that they're not?

Well, maybe, just maybe, they are scared of losing something present for fear that they won't have anything in the future. The other thing is that they are not in tune with themselves.

Agreed. So what? Where's the investment if there is no risks involved? Somehow, we just have got to break free of our fears and just hope for the best. Of course, planning is an area which is not to be forgotten. 99% of the time, it will fail without it.

Oritez, open your eyes.

the URGE

2006-07-24T01:23:00.000+08:00

I suddenly got the urge to update my blog once more. Sometimes, you just feel like writing something down like the heavy clouds forming the rain. Well, my life has got nothing much going on. Pretty much stale but I try to make myself happy by doing stupid/crazy stuffs. Right now, I have a mission to which is to shine my future. Both career aspect and love life. For a moment I thought I couldn't catch up with my skewl after missing a week of lesson. But, Alhamdulilah, I managed to keep up my pace. However there are still some things I need to clear.

I am contented with my life right now but I will seek for the better. Not in a greedy way. There are so much surprises in my way as I can sense. Well, even the little2 things makes me happy beyond words.

I wonder when will I stop shedding skin. I think it's the after effect of dengue. It's not that bad actually as I will have new skin as smooth as a newborn. Haha, as if. One more thing that upsets me is the falling hair. If my hair keep falling, I'd be bald by 30. Well, this problem too occur after dengue.

I need to sleep for tomorrow. Gdnite.

Back

2006-07-07T22:33:00.000+08:00

Hi! I'm back. So over 2-3 weeks now huh since I blog. Well, it'z all cuz of my dengue. Well, juz my luck I guess. Well, I dun wan to go on how boring it is staying in the hospital. I was damn happy that I was discharged after 5 days of stay there. Radio accompanied me in the night. And during the day, I was juz being hopeful that someone would visit me. It's realli terrible coz I got no tv. Well, i'm glad it is all over. So I have an extension of 'holidays'. Which mean had 1 month of holidays. Haha.. I'm picking myself up again from this sickness. Vital sign of health improvement is my weight. Lol, it's going up. I'm happy yet sad. Okayz... Reality check. Got tests to catch and I'm sure I miss a lot of things in skewl. Not forgetting my PROJECT. 3 weeks left only. Siao liao.. As for World Cup. I suspect France to win. Juz a prediction. Okay... Tt's the wrap.

Lazing around and old bond

2006-06-18T21:18:00.000+08:00

For a very long time, I never blog because ehem(lazy). Well, it's time to change. Especially when the holiday is running away from me. I noe time lost can't be claimed again. Well, the most interesting part for me the entire week is going to Punggol End. I noe it's not far. Well, that Thursday night, I hang out with my brothers. Quite rare for us to like 'Lepak'. Coz at home we always either dota or footman frenzy. Back to Punggol, for the first time in my life I experienced driving a car. It's a memorable experience for me. It's an automatic car though. Thanks to my bro for teaching me. Well, right now, I'm not sure when will I ever get license. Well, it ain't important which I'm trying to think. But, I know that one day, I might just be able to. I'm willing to wait. One more thing, I kind of like someone I saw. This time I was couragous enough but ah... the time won't let me or at least there's something that distracted me. That'll have to wait too. Patiently waiting they say... KK CHAOZ

4 the sake of updating

2006-06-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

Due to request. Here I am again. Writing my life away. First and foremost, I would like this post with a complain. Isn't it ironic that Starhub suddenly unable to feed Malaysia's channel? Well, I suspect it's going to continue for the whole month. Why? World Cup of course. That's some assumption huh? Let's see whether it is true. Starhub wants we victims to suscribe World Cup Channel. And their lame excuse is unable to feed the channel. HELLO! Tune the frequency properly please!

This is LIFE! Full of propaganda. Haiz. SAD.

About myself. What is there bout me? Recently, I've been producing ideas and thinking. Well, a man full of dreams as always. Just waiting and working hard to achieve it. Im not sure about the working hard part. Herher.

Just for the sake of strenghtening my principle bout relationship. Ain't going to have any till I am independent meaning I can take care of myself. But who knows, when in crazy mood, I do things that I myself am surprised.

da vinci da vinci

2006-05-31T22:57:00.000+08:00

At last... Got to watch Da Vinci's Code with Syafiq today. The story very interesting. But, I know that it's all fiction. Many parts are wrong from the real history. Shall I not elaborate. Was that a question or a statement? A statement lar.. No question mark. After so long, never see Syafiq.. Kind of a relief in a sense. Sorry for making you wait so long Fiq. I know it sucks waiting. I was always the scapegoat. My list of wants:

Happy life
Bag
Watch

That's all.. GtG.

Astronomy

2006-05-27T16:04:00.000+08:00

I went for astronomy club yesterday. It was okay. The fun part was the games.. But mainly looking at the stars and share stories. First time in my life I see shooting star. Well, I forgot that guy's name. Oh well, dun mind me for my bad rememberance of names. Well, slept quite well. Nothing beats sleeping. But too much too little may cause side effects. Hmm, i feel like want to talk what's in my my mind. But I guess. I'll swallow it all for now and let it all be past that will never be raked.

Lalala

2006-05-24T21:19:00.000+08:00

I got nothing better to do just now in the lab. So I created this. Sorry to the model of the picture. No hard feelings.

zombie

2006-05-23T19:50:00.000+08:00

I'm exhausted. I haf lots of project and assignments to do. Now, my eyes just want to close. But, I can't it's only 8. If I sleeep now. I'll oversleep. Haiz.. Tiring. I intend to donate my blood tomorrow which me reason to go and sleep. Argh!! I guess I just take a short nap. Hope so. But then again, I doubt I'll be able to go sleep. Watever.

closing the day

2006-05-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

Today practically wasted my time... Hmm.. Not so. At least strengthen the bond with frenz from Kompang. Well, entire day spent just like that. Went to help out Ismadi to fix his computer. Unsuccessful. The modem somehow can't work. And I spent so long to try to format and install windows 98. Despite that,had fun playing the guitar. ALthough just play relax2, it sure did closer the gap. Well, went home at around 9.3o. I going to sleep now. Tired ar.

Personality test

2006-05-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

My personality test below. I've changed haven't I? I got to admit myself that i haf changed. I used to be INFJ. I believe that everyone's personality will change after some dramatic events or when faced in different situations.I'm now an ENTJ. Find out in the internet to know what it means.

Bout today, I've finally managed to successfully and compressed Firdaus CDs. WooHoo! After so much Crapz. I've managed to complete my Java programming which was supposed to be completed yesterday in my calender.

After these two successes, I practically did nothing at home. Slack. Or rest to view from an optimist angle. I had wanted to go out. But, BLEAH! Tomorrow, hmm, Kompang in the morning. I want to pamper myself, I see what I can do tomorrow. Now, my task at hand is to complete my Com Skills and OOP. Ttz all.

Burn to ashes

2006-05-20T01:13:00.000+08:00

I have confirmed that I lost 22 bucks juz like dat for 2 dvd-dl. Crap man. I can get like 18 dvd-r for the same price. Bullshit right? And the space for 18 dvd-r compared to 2 dvd-dl is 84.6:17... Freaking stupid isn't it? So I want to advise all to you people out there to make the same mistake as I am. The mistake that I made is that I tried to burn a copyrighted cd. And so I failed the first time. The second time comes. I tried again with different software. I failed yet again. So my advice is not to burn copyrighted cds. Instead.. Well, ask me for the answer. **top secret**.. I feel that my money is like wasted just that. I never get anything in return. FACK.. Sad sia.. Sorry for being offensive but, it's really an intricate method that I've gone through. So to add things up, I've wasted around the same amount on something else which prove futile. Well, it's not my fortune then. Nvm, rice have become porridge. Should have known earlier. Should have research. That's why planning is vital in any case. Plan well, for life and afterlife. Arghh!! I go sleep. The best on top of everything else. But not those nightmarez.

Kingfisher

2006-05-19T20:22:00.000+08:00

I went to skewl today. Well, nothing much happened. Juz that got to do some assignment which is to be submitted by Tuesday. Went to Istiqamah for Friday prayers. After which bump into Jefri. Talk a little and now it reminds me to add him in friendster. Well, then nap time. Woke up, excercise time. Jogging that is. Didn't take the usual route today. Coz I noe I got to spend more time to burn fat in lieu of carbo. While running at the Serangoon Connector. I saw a flock of kingfisher. It amazed me. The structure of the bird itself. The colours. They were looking for food. I witnessed their dive and thought that there's lot of thing that can be related to it.

For example, the concentration. The Kingfisher scan the waters and find a victim. After which, their beak will be at a 45 degrees down and in aiming position. Swiftly, they would make a 90 degrees plunge downwards and toss the fish up in the air. Then, grab it to satisfy their stomach.

It teaches me to visualise my goal. Evaluate the situation. Lastly, make the move. There's just so much thing to do. But time management is the key. Okaylar.

Soccer

2006-05-15T16:28:00.000+08:00

Juz now, I played soccer with most of my class boys. I can say it was fun cause I haven't play soccer for very long. Kind of miss those good old days. We played at the floorball field. I had thought the field was supposed to be rough. But to my surprise, it was actually like the artificial grass.It's comfy playing barefooted. Cannot blame me for my "shocking" discovery. I'm not engaged in sports so I do not know anithing. Well, took a picture too. And when taking the picture was damn funny. We wanted to take a picture as a group. So, we used Junjie Hp and set the cam to timer mode. Well, the first take was about successful until the final count when the hp fell. It seriously took us a lot of time just to take a single picture. HAHA, but what the heck! IT WAS FUN!!